(Photograph: Chloe Thornton)
At the moment the idea of shutting off from the majority of the people I know seems too appealing.people and their treatment of others hits a sore spot. And I am finding myself wanted to emotionally detach myself from others, so that they cannot have an effect on my emotions and so that I don't find myself being disappointed by other peoples words, actions or state of mind. I would like to think i am open minded person however I am discovering that people who continually flip their personality and/or try to drill into you that they are always right, and who think that the ways of society and the collective conscious are set in concrete really strike a cord with me at the moment. A cord that's difficult to ignore and stirs an unsettling feeling. The statement ' that's just how it is' makes me angry. exploitation of the sexuality of woman makes me angry. Woman who exploit themselves make me angry. I hate the way that it is so socially acceptable for sex to be used in advertising, in order to set expectations about looks and gender roles, and is just so normal and desensitized. I just seem to be angry at the moment, and I wish that I could just escape it all, feel something real, untainted by technology, media and the need for social acceptance. The mindset of attention hungry females and the primitive and unattached sexual mindset of males. I don't know how to fix this. Is it something that needs to be fixed? Or amI someone who needs to be around and supported by like minded people who can give me helpful advice that makes things a little easier to handle. Its a very sore subject, and I find at the moment the approach by almost everyone I encounter discussing it is way too strong and rough for my current state. It needs to be handled with great care, One thing is for sure I need to figure out how to lose some of this hate and anger I have manifesting.
I wish things could be simpler!